We've made God into our own personal puppet. Nothing right or wrong with it. Let's just realize what we're doing. "God" is the entire soup of concepts that we seem to be made of. Every label, description, judgment and belief; including the belief in you as an individual person, comes together to create "God". "God" is an idea of what is. The "God" we claim to know is simply an idea, a mental fabrication...a thought. This thought of God is not God, just as Kermit the Frog is not this picture you see. Kermit is actually the guy with his hand in this puppet. This guy has to be there before "Kermit" can come to "life". The same with our idea of God. Something has to already be, before we can have a thought or idea about it. Something has to already be before we can believe in it. But whatever is "here" is not the idea or belief about it.
God is not a thought in our heads that can be believed, hidden from others, and controlled. We've mistaken our belief in God for God. We have taken this mental fabrication...this puppet...this story...this belief in God and made it an idol. This belief is our Golden Calf. We worship this belief. We praise this puppet. We sacrifice and suffer in the name of this description. We ignore Reality in favor of the story. This is what causes our suffering. We mistake what we've made for what is. We go to war for what we've made. This is what we fight and kill to defend. What is here before our belief in it, does not need defense. Truth is true and does not need an army of believers to fight for it. You already know this, but there is a marked difference between what you believe and what you know.
For example. If I asked you, "Do you believe you are an individual person"?, you would say, "yes". If I then asked you, "Why do you believe you're an individual person"? you'd list for me all the "facts" according to what you've learned from reading books, going to school, listening to your parents, friends, teachers, etc. You will offer your education as proof of your belief. There's no other way for you to prove a belief. You MUST use what you have been told to prove a belief. There is no other evidence. It's ALL hearsay.
And why must you "believe" you are an individual person? Why don't you know it? If I asked you, "Do you know you are an individual person"?, you would also say "yes". If I then asked you, "How do you know?" You would attempt to give me the same evidence as you gave me for belief but that evidence won't work. The question, "how do you know"? is about the present moment. What evidence do you have in this present moment? I'm not asking for what you remember from your last Biology course, church sermon, group discussion or doctor's visit. Without calling on memory, how do you currently know you are an individual? What in your present experience tells you that you are an individual. Nothing tells you that. Experience does NOT tell you that. Experience does not "speak" English or any other language. It simply is what it is.
The second you begin to describe experience is the second you begin to make an idea...a story...a mental fabrication...an idol...a God. What you're doing is making experience (or Reality) a puppet where you put your hand inside and begin speaking for it. You don't need to do that. It isn't necessary. It's not needed. How do you know anything at all? How do you know God? Without speaking for experience; just answer the question. Without becoming a puppeteer...simply answer the question.